snow snow go away.

snow snow go away. i am very much disliking this weather. its making me very angry. mother nature doesnt seem to agree that i should be able to see my boyfriend on the weekends. ha it makes me angry because he isnt here during the week and it seems like when the weekends roll around that there is always a chance of snow. we just got 2 inches and i dont know how the roads are and of course...... ITS VALENTINES DAY WEEKEND.

im missing on my valentine and ready to see him! things are going pretty good. i have to go to work tomorrow. ugh. then hopefully spend some time with my baby! if not im praying that sunday will work out. but then again you never know with this nasty weather.

its off to spend some time thinking and texting and doing a bible study... not all at the same time btw. ahhaha

later yall. :)

I would love...

I would love to have a "normal" weekend with my boy. I miss him so much during the week. when he gets home i then have to worry about him getting called in to work at Medic, which sucks because its no fun going out with friends when they dont understand what im going throgh or they all have their boyfriends hanging around. :( I had this whole romantic day planned tomorrow. I was going to take him to where we both absolutely LOVE and make a promise to him ( :] ) and then take him to a VERY romantic dinner and possibly a movie. whatever he wanted. he surprised me with a "date day" this summer before he left for school. and i was so excited the night before that i couldnt sleep.. i ended up falling asleep that night in the truck ( haha) but with him being on call i guess i should just get used to this Huh? this just SUCKS how i know that i can NEVER make plans anymore with out the threat of them being ruined. im just gonna say this now... I SWEAR... IF THEY MESS UP MY SENIOR PROM WITH MY BOYFRIEND I WILL BE SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD. thank you. im done now.

I cannot believe that 7 months exactly i will be taking my first college class :D im soooooo excited to get up there and start a BRAND new chapter in my life. I will get to see Ben almost every single day. at least once. :) date nights to O'Mallys, walking around campus, doing devotions together ( not just over the phone.. actually in person) and just being with him. he is the one person that when i have a bad day. i just wanna cuddle up with. now i can acutally do that :)

I guess im hitting that stage where i am too mature for my high school friends and just wanting to move on! its officall that i only have like 90 more days of high school!!!!! whoooooooooooooo

thats all for tonight folks.

grrrrr

so ill post this because people just tick meoff. i cant handle it. ahhhhhh

stop taking advatage of me. grrr.

off to spend the day with my "bubby" :)
byeeee yall

it is all hitting me so fast.

it is all hitting me that in just 7 months ill be packing my stuff and moving out of my house and in to a dorm. im soo excited. but yet so scared to mess things up. i dont wanna skrew up. i feel like there is so much riding on my shoulders to shine like a star. i want to make my parents happy and proud of me. i would HATE it to disapoint them. im ready to move on from dumb people, rude people, and just immauture people.

on a lighter note. but yet a sadder note. ben has to shave his beard for emt lab and i cried when he told me. he has had it since we started dating and its gonna be soooo weird to see him without it.

well i CANNOT wait to see him this weekend. it feels like it has been forever.

toodles yall

its been forever..

i am going to get better at writing on this thing to get my feelings out.

My life has been pretty craZy. I have to say. i absolutely love being a firefighters/ emts girlfriend :) i couldnt be more proud of him. he is the MOST amazing thing in my life. i get so scared when he runs in to the fire but i know that God is looking over him and over me as he does it. I had to send him back to school this week and it is seeming like FOREVER till friday comes. i have had a whole month with him and it sucks to get back in to this routine. Last semester was quite rough on our relationship. We fought a lot and i hated when we were both upset. we both had so much "getting used to" to do. We have decided that we are going to really try and stay focused this semester but have promised that we will also make sure that we make time for each other. so to sum it up. I couldnt be a happier girl :)

As for my own life.. I am now officially a catamount of WCU class of 2014!! :) i am sooooooo excited for next fall. I cant wait to start a brand spankin new chapter of my life. Im excited to see what God has instore for me. Im scared to leave what I know. but im excited to move on!

Ill get better at writing on this thing i promise. :)

toodlesss

goodness....

God has everything undercontrol right? yeahh... thats what i thought. WHY IS THIS SO HARD... when i start to trust him then i feel my life is going out of control. but hes supposed to make sure it goes alright.. i swear... this is hard.
thats it for tonight. im a tad frustrated. and stressedddd


peaceeeeeeeeeeee

im on the brink

im on the brink of breaking down thats forsure! several things CRAZY going on in my life.
the boyfriend is now a full member of the Leciester Fire Department. YAY him! im so proud of him. Hes taking EMT classes two nights a week and i am so proud to be a firefighter/emt girlfriend :). I think hes starting to realize that its gonna be very hard not seeing me..and slowly im realizing it too. were about to go a week without seeing each other and its gonna be very hard! hes the love of my life and i dont know what i would do without him. I know ive said that before.. but this time i mean it... its hard to go on without him. i pray everynight God doesnt take him out of my life. God has a plan for us. thats forsure. we just have to trust his plan.
Report Cards are coming out this week and im nervous. i dont know how i did. Im surely hoping that I did okay. but this semester my goal is to make straight A's at least one six weeks. I know my parents would be proud. Im stressing so much... i dont even know why.. im stressing over the little things these day and it SUCKS!!!!! any advise anyonee.. i know breathe and trust God. he will take care of everything. I needed to vent. goodthing I have this thing...