I would love...

I would love to have a "normal" weekend with my boy. I miss him so much during the week. when he gets home i then have to worry about him getting called in to work at Medic, which sucks because its no fun going out with friends when they dont understand what im going throgh or they all have their boyfriends hanging around. :( I had this whole romantic day planned tomorrow. I was going to take him to where we both absolutely LOVE and make a promise to him ( :] ) and then take him to a VERY romantic dinner and possibly a movie. whatever he wanted. he surprised me with a "date day" this summer before he left for school. and i was so excited the night before that i couldnt sleep.. i ended up falling asleep that night in the truck ( haha) but with him being on call i guess i should just get used to this Huh? this just SUCKS how i know that i can NEVER make plans anymore with out the threat of them being ruined. im just gonna say this now... I SWEAR... IF THEY MESS UP MY SENIOR PROM WITH MY BOYFRIEND I WILL BE SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD. thank you. im done now.

I cannot believe that 7 months exactly i will be taking my first college class :D im soooooo excited to get up there and start a BRAND new chapter in my life. I will get to see Ben almost every single day. at least once. :) date nights to O'Mallys, walking around campus, doing devotions together ( not just over the phone.. actually in person) and just being with him. he is the one person that when i have a bad day. i just wanna cuddle up with. now i can acutally do that :)

I guess im hitting that stage where i am too mature for my high school friends and just wanting to move on! its officall that i only have like 90 more days of high school!!!!! whoooooooooooooo

thats all for tonight folks.

grrrrr

so ill post this because people just tick meoff. i cant handle it. ahhhhhh

stop taking advatage of me. grrr.

off to spend the day with my "bubby" :)
byeeee yall

it is all hitting me so fast.

it is all hitting me that in just 7 months ill be packing my stuff and moving out of my house and in to a dorm. im soo excited. but yet so scared to mess things up. i dont wanna skrew up. i feel like there is so much riding on my shoulders to shine like a star. i want to make my parents happy and proud of me. i would HATE it to disapoint them. im ready to move on from dumb people, rude people, and just immauture people.

on a lighter note. but yet a sadder note. ben has to shave his beard for emt lab and i cried when he told me. he has had it since we started dating and its gonna be soooo weird to see him without it.

well i CANNOT wait to see him this weekend. it feels like it has been forever.

toodles yall

its been forever..

i am going to get better at writing on this thing to get my feelings out.

My life has been pretty craZy. I have to say. i absolutely love being a firefighters/ emts girlfriend :) i couldnt be more proud of him. he is the MOST amazing thing in my life. i get so scared when he runs in to the fire but i know that God is looking over him and over me as he does it. I had to send him back to school this week and it is seeming like FOREVER till friday comes. i have had a whole month with him and it sucks to get back in to this routine. Last semester was quite rough on our relationship. We fought a lot and i hated when we were both upset. we both had so much "getting used to" to do. We have decided that we are going to really try and stay focused this semester but have promised that we will also make sure that we make time for each other. so to sum it up. I couldnt be a happier girl :)

As for my own life.. I am now officially a catamount of WCU class of 2014!! :) i am sooooooo excited for next fall. I cant wait to start a brand spankin new chapter of my life. Im excited to see what God has instore for me. Im scared to leave what I know. but im excited to move on!

Ill get better at writing on this thing i promise. :)

toodlesss